Saturday, May 29, 2004
Tugging to the 80's
I just got back from work. On Friday nights there is so much down time. The plane comes in and then we unload a few cans and then load up some empty cans in their place. Out of the few times that I have worked on Friday nights the most that we unload has been 6 cans. So then after that we do some other work and then we get to sit around for about three hours. Last week and this week I was practicing backing up a dolly behind my tug. Ernest taught me how to do it the easy way. It was really helpful. The whole time we were tugging we were listening to the radio and it was playing songs from the eighties. Ernest grew up in the 80's. I mean so did I but he was a teen ager in the 80's. So he likes that music. It wasn't too bad.
I have been thinking about Girlie and Jessi the past couple weeks. Last night Girlie called me and we talked for a while. She told me that she saw Mike and Katy. She said that Katy had gained weight and that she wouldn't even look at Girlie. I have talked to Aaron a lot this week also. He told me that Mike has been drinking a lot lately. I am sure that he is probably not getting drunk but still. When I would go places and my friends would get a drink I would take a sip and he would freak out. He would give me a big lecture. Now he is drinking all the time. I am so worried about him. It is not about me and him being together anymore. Now I am worried that he will not be happy. I know that if I am not doing what God has called me to do that I will not be happy. That I can not be happy. I know the potential that Mike has. I know that God wants to do amazing things in and through his life. I am worried that Mike has given up on his calling. I pray that God will speak to him and that he will listen. That Mike will remember his calling. Too much is at stake for him to forget. Too many lives at risk.
That brings me to the next thing. Nana. I feel really bad that I don't feel bad about her dying. I am almost certain that Nana was not a Christian and that she is most likely not with Jesus right now. What worries me is that I am not effected. I should be so heart broken for her. Lord give me more of a heart for your people. That I would not be so unaffected by this. I want to be distraught because if I am not then I will not work hard to show God's love to others. I hate feeling like this. I know that I did not do my job where Nana is concerned. God forgive me. Nana forgive me.
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I have been thinking about Girlie and Jessi the past couple weeks. Last night Girlie called me and we talked for a while. She told me that she saw Mike and Katy. She said that Katy had gained weight and that she wouldn't even look at Girlie. I have talked to Aaron a lot this week also. He told me that Mike has been drinking a lot lately. I am sure that he is probably not getting drunk but still. When I would go places and my friends would get a drink I would take a sip and he would freak out. He would give me a big lecture. Now he is drinking all the time. I am so worried about him. It is not about me and him being together anymore. Now I am worried that he will not be happy. I know that if I am not doing what God has called me to do that I will not be happy. That I can not be happy. I know the potential that Mike has. I know that God wants to do amazing things in and through his life. I am worried that Mike has given up on his calling. I pray that God will speak to him and that he will listen. That Mike will remember his calling. Too much is at stake for him to forget. Too many lives at risk.
That brings me to the next thing. Nana. I feel really bad that I don't feel bad about her dying. I am almost certain that Nana was not a Christian and that she is most likely not with Jesus right now. What worries me is that I am not effected. I should be so heart broken for her. Lord give me more of a heart for your people. That I would not be so unaffected by this. I want to be distraught because if I am not then I will not work hard to show God's love to others. I hate feeling like this. I know that I did not do my job where Nana is concerned. God forgive me. Nana forgive me.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Nana Died
No, Nana is not a dog, a fish or a truck. This time a person did die. She was my Grandpa's wife. The one that my mom spanked on Thanksgiving. She died of a heartattack in her bed. This is what happened as far as I know...
Nana's neighbors hadn't seen her in a while so they called the cops. I don't know what the cops did because Nana's nephew went over to her house with the locksmith and got inside. The doctors said that it seemed that she had been dead from 7-10 days! That is the saddest part. I hope that when I die that I am surrounded by people who love me and that I am not alone. My family found out today and they went to go and tell my Papa. This is what happened...
My three siblings, my two parents, Nana's brother and his wife all were at the nursing home and in the hallway they decided that my dad was going to tell my Papa. So they walk in and Dick, Nana's brother, tells Papa that they had something to tell him and that my dad was going to say it. So my dad starts and says that they have something to tell him about Vi, aka Nana. Then Dick jumps in and says, "She died! She died! Of a heartattack and nobody found her for ten days!" So my dad was like, "OK Dick, go ahead." Then Barbara, Dick's wife, says to my family, "So when are you guys going to Hawaii?" While my Papa is trying to say something. She looks over at him for a minute then looks back at my family and says, "They have wonderful busses there. I will always take the bus. It doesn't matter how many people are on it. I don't care. I love the bus in Hawaii." Then Dick says, "Oh, be quiet already!" Barbara, "I am telling them about the bus!"
Then I call my mom because I had a note on my door saying that she called. So she tells me about it and then she gives the phone to my sister and she talks to me. Then my brother wants to talk to me so she gives him the phone and he is talking to me for a while. Then I get another call so I tell my brother to hold on and I flip over and it is my sister. I hear my brother sitting next to her and he was like, "Oh my gosh I can't believe you! I am talking to her. Christine, she is sitting right next to me!" So I tell my sister to hold on and I flip back over to Cliff and then he says, "See? Who does she want to talk to now?" Then he tells me about his stand-up competitions and then I get another call. So I tell him that I got another call and he says, "I wonder who that is?! I wonder!" Then I flip over and it was my other brother Danny. Then Cliff says, "Oh, I see how it is!" Then Danny says, "Cliff was hogging you so I am calling you. Sarah is on her phone, Cliff is on Mom's phone and I am on Dad's phone!" My family is so crazy. All this is happening in the nursing home where my Papa is learning about his wife dying. My family is so weird. I love them.
HHHMMMmmm...I wonder if I can get bereavement since she died. Even though I am not going to the service? That would be nice because I don't have work on Sunday, then I could get Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off too. Then I would not have to worry about going to work all week while my family is here. They get here on Sunday! 5 days!
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Nana's neighbors hadn't seen her in a while so they called the cops. I don't know what the cops did because Nana's nephew went over to her house with the locksmith and got inside. The doctors said that it seemed that she had been dead from 7-10 days! That is the saddest part. I hope that when I die that I am surrounded by people who love me and that I am not alone. My family found out today and they went to go and tell my Papa. This is what happened...
My three siblings, my two parents, Nana's brother and his wife all were at the nursing home and in the hallway they decided that my dad was going to tell my Papa. So they walk in and Dick, Nana's brother, tells Papa that they had something to tell him and that my dad was going to say it. So my dad starts and says that they have something to tell him about Vi, aka Nana. Then Dick jumps in and says, "She died! She died! Of a heartattack and nobody found her for ten days!" So my dad was like, "OK Dick, go ahead." Then Barbara, Dick's wife, says to my family, "So when are you guys going to Hawaii?" While my Papa is trying to say something. She looks over at him for a minute then looks back at my family and says, "They have wonderful busses there. I will always take the bus. It doesn't matter how many people are on it. I don't care. I love the bus in Hawaii." Then Dick says, "Oh, be quiet already!" Barbara, "I am telling them about the bus!"
Then I call my mom because I had a note on my door saying that she called. So she tells me about it and then she gives the phone to my sister and she talks to me. Then my brother wants to talk to me so she gives him the phone and he is talking to me for a while. Then I get another call so I tell my brother to hold on and I flip over and it is my sister. I hear my brother sitting next to her and he was like, "Oh my gosh I can't believe you! I am talking to her. Christine, she is sitting right next to me!" So I tell my sister to hold on and I flip back over to Cliff and then he says, "See? Who does she want to talk to now?" Then he tells me about his stand-up competitions and then I get another call. So I tell him that I got another call and he says, "I wonder who that is?! I wonder!" Then I flip over and it was my other brother Danny. Then Cliff says, "Oh, I see how it is!" Then Danny says, "Cliff was hogging you so I am calling you. Sarah is on her phone, Cliff is on Mom's phone and I am on Dad's phone!" My family is so crazy. All this is happening in the nursing home where my Papa is learning about his wife dying. My family is so weird. I love them.
HHHMMMmmm...I wonder if I can get bereavement since she died. Even though I am not going to the service? That would be nice because I don't have work on Sunday, then I could get Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off too. Then I would not have to worry about going to work all week while my family is here. They get here on Sunday! 5 days!
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Theme of the week - Brokenness
This weekend my car broke. On Saturday, I drove around a lot and I think that it broke my car. Hobbs is on his deathbed! OOHHh how sad. So Saturday was the last time that I drove him. Where did I go on Saturday? I went to Ewa Beach and couldn't find where I was going. A wasted trip. I went to the swap meet. My best two purchases are the fins and the Orchid plant that were $3 each!!!! Yeah!!! Then later that day Brandon picked me up and we went to set up and I went to the concert that I talked about in my last post.
At church on Sunday, Pastor Wayne talked about brokenness. Then we had our own little service. It went good. Then after the services we went to the baptisms. Three of my small group kids got baptized. I was so proud of them! There we were talking about brokenness and that is why we get baptized and all this stuff. It was really good.
With my car being broken and all how did I get to work? Well, Sunday night I got to work by driving the Mercedes that Breanna has. She didn't seem to want me to drive it so the next day I had Antonio ask Mark if he would give me a ride. He did and he is going to give me a ride tonight too. It is really nice of him to do that for me. I have to go an hour earlier than normal but that's ok. What I really feel bad about is that Mark gets off of work an hour and a half before I do. And he just waits for me. Well he hangs out with his friends and gets something to eat, but still! I think that Antonio wants me to go out with Mark. I don't know. Every time he comes over Antonio always looks at me with this look and says, "I'm gonna call your twin!" and calls Mark. Yeah Mark is just like me. See the post entitled "The Deep Blue Clouds" on April 23rd. Here is more ways that he is like me. The whole way to work he talked non stop. I was glad it is nice to listen to people. He makes me laugh. Normally I am the one talking. It was a nice switch. Then we were talking about cars. Well he was talking about cars and he was saying that he had a beetle! I gasped and asked what kind he said a 2001. *disappointment* I had a 1970 beetle! Then he told me that he would rather have a Golf GTI! *gasp* Me too! Except he wants a newer one and I want one from the later '80s. Weird! Just Weird!
I think this post is over. I hope that you weren't bored!
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At church on Sunday, Pastor Wayne talked about brokenness. Then we had our own little service. It went good. Then after the services we went to the baptisms. Three of my small group kids got baptized. I was so proud of them! There we were talking about brokenness and that is why we get baptized and all this stuff. It was really good.
With my car being broken and all how did I get to work? Well, Sunday night I got to work by driving the Mercedes that Breanna has. She didn't seem to want me to drive it so the next day I had Antonio ask Mark if he would give me a ride. He did and he is going to give me a ride tonight too. It is really nice of him to do that for me. I have to go an hour earlier than normal but that's ok. What I really feel bad about is that Mark gets off of work an hour and a half before I do. And he just waits for me. Well he hangs out with his friends and gets something to eat, but still! I think that Antonio wants me to go out with Mark. I don't know. Every time he comes over Antonio always looks at me with this look and says, "I'm gonna call your twin!" and calls Mark. Yeah Mark is just like me. See the post entitled "The Deep Blue Clouds" on April 23rd. Here is more ways that he is like me. The whole way to work he talked non stop. I was glad it is nice to listen to people. He makes me laugh. Normally I am the one talking. It was a nice switch. Then we were talking about cars. Well he was talking about cars and he was saying that he had a beetle! I gasped and asked what kind he said a 2001. *disappointment* I had a 1970 beetle! Then he told me that he would rather have a Golf GTI! *gasp* Me too! Except he wants a newer one and I want one from the later '80s. Weird! Just Weird!
I think this post is over. I hope that you weren't bored!
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Saturday, May 22, 2004
Crescent, sprinkling discontentment.
Tonight I went to Tasha’s concert. She is in the orchestra band. She plays the cello. I was very amazed at the awesomeness of God by the concert. I mean like they are playing on pieces of carved wood and strings and this amazing music is coming out. Music has been amazing to me lately. These pieces of wood and string makes these sounds in the air. I mean we can't see the sound waves but they are there. You can hear it fill the air. There is no proof of it but the sound in your ears. Amazing! Craziness!
When they were done playing I went out and saw Tasha. She was surprised to see me. She was glad. We talked for a while and I met her mom and we had a nice time. (Tasha got saved last Sunday. I got to pray for her. Tomorrow she is getting baptized.) Then after they left I went back in and watched the symphonic band play.
Then after that I was leaving and it was dark out and I was feeling kind of alone. I normally don’t feel like this. But I had a sense that I was alone. There were times when I would walk around the streets of Bangkok and I was alone. It was the same as it is now. I was away from my friends and family. I was of course with God like I am now. But I never felt alone. Maybe because I knew that Mike was praying for me and had me in his thoughts. Now he is not in my life and I am sure he never thinks about me. As I was walking to the car it started to sprinkle. So I took my glasses off and let the mist splash my face, and as I was looking at the purplish blue sky I was thinking about my life and what it was going to be like. Would I be alone forever? (Don’t get me wrong, I am not really alone I have a ton of friends here. It just feels different. I know that every where I go I will have friends and Hanai families.) Would life be what I hope it would be. I don’t even have a clear picture of what that is but I do know that I want to be content. I am not content in this season of my life. Maybe I don’t want to be content. Maybe discontentedness is good because then you strive for more and if you are content then you won’t strive for anything you would stay in one place. You would not grow. I don’t know about my life.
Then I went to set up for church tomorrow. Even though they were already done. As I was walking to the room I was looking at the sky and I saw the crescent moon. It looked so small in the spance of the sky. The sky looked so big. I felt so small. Then I was thinking that the world is so big and how there are so many people in it. Then I thought that they all have lives and so much drama that they all have and they are all connected to so many people just like I am. That made me feel small too. Then I thought that God must be so awesome and big to have created us and make us like this. So complex!
We had small group on Wednesday. It was really good. We did something different from the norm. Instead of going through the worship songs and talking about what they meant, we had a little time of worship then I asked them if they had anything that they might like to share. It started off small then towards the end they started to get deep and personal with the group. Some things that people normally keep secret. I was really encouraged to see them open up and want to have the group keep them accountable. Next week will be different than all the past weeks. I hope that it will be good. I love my small group.
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When they were done playing I went out and saw Tasha. She was surprised to see me. She was glad. We talked for a while and I met her mom and we had a nice time. (Tasha got saved last Sunday. I got to pray for her. Tomorrow she is getting baptized.) Then after they left I went back in and watched the symphonic band play.
Then after that I was leaving and it was dark out and I was feeling kind of alone. I normally don’t feel like this. But I had a sense that I was alone. There were times when I would walk around the streets of Bangkok and I was alone. It was the same as it is now. I was away from my friends and family. I was of course with God like I am now. But I never felt alone. Maybe because I knew that Mike was praying for me and had me in his thoughts. Now he is not in my life and I am sure he never thinks about me. As I was walking to the car it started to sprinkle. So I took my glasses off and let the mist splash my face, and as I was looking at the purplish blue sky I was thinking about my life and what it was going to be like. Would I be alone forever? (Don’t get me wrong, I am not really alone I have a ton of friends here. It just feels different. I know that every where I go I will have friends and Hanai families.) Would life be what I hope it would be. I don’t even have a clear picture of what that is but I do know that I want to be content. I am not content in this season of my life. Maybe I don’t want to be content. Maybe discontentedness is good because then you strive for more and if you are content then you won’t strive for anything you would stay in one place. You would not grow. I don’t know about my life.
Then I went to set up for church tomorrow. Even though they were already done. As I was walking to the room I was looking at the sky and I saw the crescent moon. It looked so small in the spance of the sky. The sky looked so big. I felt so small. Then I was thinking that the world is so big and how there are so many people in it. Then I thought that they all have lives and so much drama that they all have and they are all connected to so many people just like I am. That made me feel small too. Then I thought that God must be so awesome and big to have created us and make us like this. So complex!
We had small group on Wednesday. It was really good. We did something different from the norm. Instead of going through the worship songs and talking about what they meant, we had a little time of worship then I asked them if they had anything that they might like to share. It started off small then towards the end they started to get deep and personal with the group. Some things that people normally keep secret. I was really encouraged to see them open up and want to have the group keep them accountable. Next week will be different than all the past weeks. I hope that it will be good. I love my small group.
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Pac Rim Retreat
Last night I decided to go to the one day Pac Rim Retreat. This morning Liz left for Cambodia. Then I went to the retreat. There were about 12 women there. We had sent the guys away. We went around the table and talked about where we are in this part of our lives. It took us ten hours to go around the table one time! It was crazy! Crazy good.
I cried so much today I have a head ache! There is no more makeup on my face. I have small group tonight and I don't think that I will put any one before I go. But I don't know. I think that I am going to do something different this week. I think that we will worship for a while then I will let who ever wants to talk and then maybe pray for them. I don't know I will let the spirit lead. I hope that it turns out good. I don't know.
The best news that I got today is the grade on my paper for Exegesis class! It was a ten page paper on "What did John the Baptist Mean when he said Behold the Lamb of God". In this class I had been getting 60% on most of the quizes. 79% on the homeworks even lower scores on the homeworks. So I was kinda worried about it. But I got the paper back and I got a 99%!!!! Yeah! And the other best part is that Liz got a 97%! That is still really good but she always gets the highest scores on everything! So I was so stoked about my grade! Wow
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I cried so much today I have a head ache! There is no more makeup on my face. I have small group tonight and I don't think that I will put any one before I go. But I don't know. I think that I am going to do something different this week. I think that we will worship for a while then I will let who ever wants to talk and then maybe pray for them. I don't know I will let the spirit lead. I hope that it turns out good. I don't know.
The best news that I got today is the grade on my paper for Exegesis class! It was a ten page paper on "What did John the Baptist Mean when he said Behold the Lamb of God". In this class I had been getting 60% on most of the quizes. 79% on the homeworks even lower scores on the homeworks. So I was kinda worried about it. But I got the paper back and I got a 99%!!!! Yeah! And the other best part is that Liz got a 97%! That is still really good but she always gets the highest scores on everything! So I was so stoked about my grade! Wow
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Thursday, May 13, 2004
*heavy sigh*
Finals are finally over and I got all of my papers written and turned in. It feels so good. Such relief to be done! I don't have to go back to school for three months. I am going to take a break. Sleep more than four hours a night and go to the beach a lot. I need to loose weight and get a tan. I am going to go and buy fins this week.
Liz leaves me in less than a week. I am going to miss her so much, as my friend, roommate and ministry partner. My sis will be here for over a month. I hope that I will not be charged for having her there because if they do charge me then we will have to pay $300. That would suck. If they do then we will find a way. Breanna and Natalie will be gone for a month each and they will both be paying rent during that time. They said that Sarah could go under their rent. But we will see. I am really excited about her coming. The rest of my family too. I will be excited. I am excited.
Whenever Jamie gets here we will be going to Waiola's Shave Ice. I am really excited about this but now I am soo hungry that I just want to eat. I feel like she will never be here! Oh well I know she will eventually. Maybe we can go get something to eat. I was going to say something but I forgot.
Yesterday we had small group. I love my kids! They are the best. Yesterday they seemed really hyper...That's ok because I love it when people are hyper. We were so loud that we couldn't even hear the door bell ring. At my small group we always end up having so much food! Last niht J.Amos brought cake and pizza and Tampica. Then the David and Chris had nachos. Then when I was at the ministry center they were giving away dozens of Crispy Cream donuts. So I brought them a dozen. So much food. Crazyness!!!
Well I think that this post is kinda boring. So if anybody is reading it...I am sorry for the boringness.
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Liz leaves me in less than a week. I am going to miss her so much, as my friend, roommate and ministry partner. My sis will be here for over a month. I hope that I will not be charged for having her there because if they do charge me then we will have to pay $300. That would suck. If they do then we will find a way. Breanna and Natalie will be gone for a month each and they will both be paying rent during that time. They said that Sarah could go under their rent. But we will see. I am really excited about her coming. The rest of my family too. I will be excited. I am excited.
Whenever Jamie gets here we will be going to Waiola's Shave Ice. I am really excited about this but now I am soo hungry that I just want to eat. I feel like she will never be here! Oh well I know she will eventually. Maybe we can go get something to eat. I was going to say something but I forgot.
Yesterday we had small group. I love my kids! They are the best. Yesterday they seemed really hyper...That's ok because I love it when people are hyper. We were so loud that we couldn't even hear the door bell ring. At my small group we always end up having so much food! Last niht J.Amos brought cake and pizza and Tampica. Then the David and Chris had nachos. Then when I was at the ministry center they were giving away dozens of Crispy Cream donuts. So I brought them a dozen. So much food. Crazyness!!!
Well I think that this post is kinda boring. So if anybody is reading it...I am sorry for the boringness.
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Monday, May 03, 2004
God is good!
Last night at work Cindy told me that she said yes to Jesus yesterday at work. I was so excited! I didn't really play a hand in her salvation but I know that I did ask her if she wanted to come to church. This is what I live for. To see people come to know God. She had excepted Jesus before but yesterday she said that she opened up her WHOLE life to Him.
She told me about her son seeing a ghost while camping. He feels like he is going off the deep end. I know that spirits are real. I bet he feels like he is a wacko. But I know that he is not. I will tell his mom what I talked to Dr. B about. He had told me that spirits do exist and that he was not surprised to hear this story. But that as Christians we have more power than them. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4.
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She told me about her son seeing a ghost while camping. He feels like he is going off the deep end. I know that spirits are real. I bet he feels like he is a wacko. But I know that he is not. I will tell his mom what I talked to Dr. B about. He had told me that spirits do exist and that he was not surprised to hear this story. But that as Christians we have more power than them. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4.
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Club Pau'ahi
My band, Harrison (see link to the left) had a show at Club Pau'ahi on Saturday night. I had to be there at 6:30pm to set up. I had never been there and I didn't know how long it would take me to get there. So I left my house at six o'clock. I ended up getting there at 6:03. I was really early.
I got out of the truck and walked into the club. The place looked so ghetto! It was really dirty and run down looking. There was a couple of people playing pool and there was an old man sitting at one of the tables with his head all the way back with his mouth wide open sleeping. It really cracked me up. Then I looked at the walls and there was a poster board with a bunch of pictures of drag queens on it. It made me wonder what kind of club this was. Then I walked out to unload my stuff and a car pulled up and about ten drag queens with better make-up job than me stepped out of the car. Then I really wondered what kind of place it was. But I couldn't stop laughing.
I took all my stuff inside and then I found out that we were going to have the show in the back room. I walk into the back room and there was so much junk in there. It was like a junk yard. Some girls had showed up and they hung up some fabric and did some decorating and the place ended up looking really nice. I was impressed.
Tiffa, Anela and Christy showed up and I sat with them for awhile while they ate at a diner across the way. Then I had to go in and we played our set. Colin and Stephen showed up. That was nice of them. After our show Randal's friend Willy took pictures of us. They turned out really good. I will post some of them on here when I get the CD and learn how to do that. I was impressed. Then when I came back Tabitha, Nicole and Ben had shown up and I got to hang out with them for awhile. It was a fun night.
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I got out of the truck and walked into the club. The place looked so ghetto! It was really dirty and run down looking. There was a couple of people playing pool and there was an old man sitting at one of the tables with his head all the way back with his mouth wide open sleeping. It really cracked me up. Then I looked at the walls and there was a poster board with a bunch of pictures of drag queens on it. It made me wonder what kind of club this was. Then I walked out to unload my stuff and a car pulled up and about ten drag queens with better make-up job than me stepped out of the car. Then I really wondered what kind of place it was. But I couldn't stop laughing.
I took all my stuff inside and then I found out that we were going to have the show in the back room. I walk into the back room and there was so much junk in there. It was like a junk yard. Some girls had showed up and they hung up some fabric and did some decorating and the place ended up looking really nice. I was impressed.
Tiffa, Anela and Christy showed up and I sat with them for awhile while they ate at a diner across the way. Then I had to go in and we played our set. Colin and Stephen showed up. That was nice of them. After our show Randal's friend Willy took pictures of us. They turned out really good. I will post some of them on here when I get the CD and learn how to do that. I was impressed. Then when I came back Tabitha, Nicole and Ben had shown up and I got to hang out with them for awhile. It was a fun night.
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